Self-Judgment Symphony

Is there ever a moment when I am not judging myself?

If this morning is any indication, no.

A constant undercurrent of judgement – “It’s beautiful outside, I should be out there”, “There’s that book light I bought for $30 that I have used once”, “No exercise? What about the $20 I spent on equipment for my new routine?”, “That’s why I have no money”…and on and on and on.

But I could be at peace instead.

I am loving being cozy on the couch under my favorite blanket – I feel fall coming in my bones and I am leaning hard into it 😊

I could love everything right now – if I stop listening to that judgement tirade against myself.

The split mind is so obvious in these moments – the constant narration and my ability to not listen and experience peace and love.

I have been feeling pretty lousy since Thursday when I got triggered and fell into the well of despair before I could stop myself.

It is now Monday morning, and I am beginning to remember the Light and make new decisions to honor myself and my guidance system.

And so, I choose to be at peace now, in this moment, with my coffee, under my blanket on the couch, Sammy looking out the window beside me, sun shining, cool breeze coming through the open windows.

Ah, fall. I smell you, I feel you, I am ready for whatever you will bring. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

Do you notice how often you are judging yourself? If you pay attention, it can be quite shocking! But awareness is the first step to choosing differently.